It took me a long time to get to where I stood last Saturday morning. Shoes laced up. Timing chip secured. Bib number on. Butterflies in my stomach and nervous jitters in the air. I never imagined that six months shy of looking 35 in the eye that I would have signed up, let alone shown up, to dare I say,
RUN, my first ever Half Marathon.
I have never been a runner.
I used to laugh and tease and tell people that I only ran for two reasons: Someone was chasing me down a dark alley at night trying to kill me... or the horses got out. I joked and forwarded funny little someecards around like these:
Sure, I played sports and I was athletic growing up. I even played lacrosse in high school, which is very much a running sport. But I really, truly, honestly hated to run. Every time the coach would tell us to go run laps, I loathed every minute of it. I ran during a lacrosse game only because I had to. I ran out of necessity because I liked to handle the ball, score goals and win. I was competitive and did what I had to, but I was lazy...
For that reason alone, I should be amazed that I stuck to a training program over the last few months on my own. That on my own, I became a runner. A runner that could and would attempt a Half Marathon.
I look back now at what a waste that time was playing sports. I can't help but think how much more potential I had and how much better of a player I could have been...
I was running Saturday somewhere in the middle of it all, surrounded by plowed fields, the sun, a light breeze and not much more than that. Alone on course, listening to my shoes hit the pavement over the music in my ears and the Nike cheers from my friends and I got lost in my thoughts -
which is very easy to do when you run for a couple hours. I was reflecting on the fact that this really did seem like a dream. I could not believe this day had arrived and I was brave enough to venture away from the starting line and carry my own body over 13.1 miles of Iowa country roads.
What was I thinking? What a crazy road my life was traveling on these days. I was running a Half Marathon after all.
Then I got a lump in my throat and my eyes welled up with emotions.
Do you know what really amazed me that very moment?
It wasn't that I had trained, traveled and was out in the middle of no where running 13.1 miles anymore. I was amazed that I thought this day was going to be so hard. So challenging. So physically demanding that I doubted my ability to do hard things.
I laughed because I had done harder things than lace up a pair of running shoes and venture out for 13.1 miles. 13 years ago, I walked into an operating room and faced open heart surgery. Bi-passed, my heart was stopped for I believe 13 minutes while a surgeon repaired 5 holes in my heart.
I got goose bumps while I ran. 13 years ago, 13 minutes, 13 miles...
I thought about the post-surgery complications and the recovery time it took after surgery. I thought about how I was so concerned about carrying by body over 13.1 miles when I had carried two babies for 9 months each and endured 2 c-sections.
This was nothing. I had done hard things before.
I set into a rhythm and started to see other runners in front of me again. I set new goals to catch the next person in front of me and then the next. To finish strong.
Ten miles in, my body started to feel the miles I had traveled. By mile 11 I was trying to get my head back in the game and stop focusing on the fact that my hips were aching, my right foot or sock or shoe or something down in there was annoying me, my left knee was starting to get more sore. I kept trying to push the distractions out of my mind and focus on finishing strong.
Up ahead I spotted my aunt and uncle's jeep. I waved and smiled. My uncle Ric leaned out of the car and asked me if I needed any water. Then he asked if I wanted to get in. I laughed and shook my head "No."
I was finishing this race!
A few seconds later and Ric was running next to me. Pacing with me. Running me in the last couple miles. It was perfect timing. Just when my mind was starting to tell me to slow and walk, Ric helped give me the second wind I needed for that last final push. He encouraged me and drove me to catch one more person, climb one last hill, kick it into high gear and give it all I had left to finish stronger than I know I would have finished on my own. It was amazing and special and I will always remember and thank him for those last two miles!
As we came into the home stretch, I saw my dad holding Mr Blue Eyes on his shoulders. I waved and they cheered. The finish was in sight. As I rounded the last corner, I was sprinting now. I am not really sure where that energy reserve was hiding but I found it. As I crossed the finish line -
being very, VERY careful not to trip cause that would be mortifying - my ears echoed with cheers from my family members waiting for me at the finish line. A medal was hung around my neck and I was embraced by hugs and congratulations.
I was overwhelmed by accomplishment. Did I really just do this? Did I really just run my first Half Marathon?
I did!
And I didn't walk and I wasn't last!!
Shortly after crossing the finish line my Brown Eyed Girl and Rah-Rah crossed the finish line for the 1 Mile Fun Run. I really did try to finish in time to take my Brown Eyed Girl on her very first race, but I didn't quite make it. I was very happy to know her Aunt Christi ran with her in my place!
After the runners were all back, we settled in for an afternoon of entertainment, conversations and relaxation at the finishers square.
We hugged a cow.
Hung out in Uncle Kurt's race car.
And someone may or may not have completed a little landscaping alterations at the golf course. Hope they don't mind...
I won a trophy and my Brown Eyed Girl got her very own finisher medal for the 1 Mile Run.
Rah Rah and I both snagged the Longest Traveler Awards to support the
Live Fit With Lupus race. Rah Rah for the 5K and this beaut for the Half Marathon.
It was a great day surrounded by family. A great day for a great cause. I think running my very first Half Marathon while supporting my Aunt Lisa and Uncle Mat's foundation,
Live Fit With Lupus, was the icing on the cake.
A day I won't soon forget!
I can do hard things!
I am strong!